When you are depressed, sometimes getting yourself to even eat is a chore. Nothing sounds good and on top of that, I just want to sink into my own misery and the only way to do that is to feel as empty inside my stomach as I do inside my soul.
Days like today, you just can't get out of bed. In my case, I at least made it to the sofa so that I could get up and take care of the dogs at least. I won't share the details of my day filled with slumber, but it would make the most skilled therapist concerned if they read my personal journal.
This is me most of the day sleeping with my sweet dog Ruby.
I have read that on days like today, you should be very forgiving towards yourself and use self-care.
Since I was up at 6:40 am, I only had about 16 ounces of water, half a cup of vanilla Greek yogurt and my anti-depressants/anxiety medication.
Being that it is now around 4:05 pm and I had a pounding headache.
Maybe from lack of nourishment, lack of hydration or going without my morning coffee.
Nothing sounds good, you don't feel like doing anything so cooking is unimaginable. It's hard to argue when all the preparation and portions were ready to go. And the instructions made things so easy step by step. And so I get my skillet out and start to saute'.
The result was a beautiful meal that I was so proud of myself for accomplishing. The instructions were clear and my final product was just like the picture on the recipe card. Thanks Blue Apron!
On the other hand, it was difficult because the smell of cooking grease made the house smell terrible and then the soy base and vinegar mix made the kitchen stink like foul feet.
My husband ran out of the house because the vinegar smell was so strong and I enjoyed my meal alone. The chicken was delicious and the veggies were good although it needed a little something extra. The rice made it kind of bland.
I still don't regret giving this a try. The chance to try something new and be successful at it for someone with depression is such a refreshing change of pace.
I even wanted to get on here and write about it because it is possible to try something new. Things can get better, I just got to keep my hope.
Disclaimer: I have not received any promotional sponsorship or benefits for writing this post. The blog post is focused more on my depression.